twenty thirteen

 

 

i was reviewing my first of the year post from 2012 and found it very interesting.  not wanting to be boxed in.  feeling like i wanted control of a life that was not going in the direction i had hoped.  i put it out there, i wanted to have a strong and powerful voice.  i wanted to stand up for what i believed in.  i wanted to take a stand.  so, get this.  in at least 965 ways i was forced to speak up, stand up, go out of my way, get out of my comfort zone.  the funny thing is that i saw it all unfolding like the dreams of my heart, but it didn't quite work out like that.  my goal for 2012 was reached beyond my wildest expectations.  i have one powerful and practiced voice.  one i am proud to say is my very own, unfettered by the thoughts and opinions of others.  my life is forever changed, yet in all outwardly visible ways remains the same. 

 

still, amen.

 

i watched my momma climb the napali coast.

i watched my dear friend get her wish come true.

i listened to my smallest of boys read.

i watched my oldest dog beat the odds again and again.

i caught the pie in the sky.

i saw my husband's patience fulfilled.

i climbed kilimanjaro vicariously through my best brother.

i saw great goodness in humanity and witnessed kindness like none other.

i forgave.  myself.  and let go.

 

in the upcoming year my only wish is that i am able to accept and believe in the gifts/ qualities that i'm given.  that i will make the most of what i have.  and that i will give every bit as much as i receive.  i am blessed. more than i know. more than i deserve.  i have an abundance of goodness in my cellar.  i can't wait to see how it will be used.