fire and rain

i found myself working through song lyrics.  i remembered hearing james taylor for the first time in their living room.  sweet baby james and fleetwood mac.  don't. stop. thinking about tomorrow.   for a minute i thought they needed me to say something about a mother finally at rest{little known fact:  public speaking terrifies me}.  my thoughts drifted towards sunny days that i thought would never end.  lonely times when i could not find a friend.  i always thought that i'd see her again.  now my friends are searching for their new normal.  an all too familiar feeling for me.  trying to battle through the numbness and the pointlessness of it all.  letting light fill the gaping cracks.  going on without her.  won't you look down upon me Jesus, you've got to help me make a stand.  you've got to see me through another day.  one foot in front of the other.  through memories.  through grief.  we all march on.