ho hum

i'm sitting here.  lonely.  my family has flown the coop.  me and the dog are a little mopey.  as a matter of fact, he didn't even want to go outside this morning.  i'm certain that the lack of testosterone in the house has made him question the importance of the outdoor potty.  but i imagine my boys are watering every tree in grand teton national forest without him.  i can feel his angst.  there's a lot of tension coming from that direction.

i was laughing last night when our town librarian called me.  she said that you have all these big plans and then your family leaves and suddenly nothing you had to do seems all that important.  however, this morning it took me the exact same amount of time to get ready for work except for the entire house is clean, the dishes done, and one load of laundry is complete.  so i don't know.  little bodies under foot must slow me down a bit.  and speed up my sense of urgency.

the point of this post if there is one.  would you like me to get to it?  i don't know that there is one, sorry.  all i know is that i woke up this morning praying that my kids didn't fall into jenny lake.  knowing all the while that my husband is way better at "paying attention" to their antics than i am.  hoping that one little colorado columbine plant makes it to the sweet family that will house us this weekend.  wondering about 20 year class reunions.  anxiously anticipating all the friends coming from san diego.  and seattle.  looking forward to some good visiting.  a rodeo, parade and fireworks.

i guess i'm just sitting here where it is so quiet.  and clean.  and, to be honest, boring.  i have all the time in the world, but none of it seems very exciting without constant thought interruption.   i miss my boys.  the end.