as i lay awake with sweet pea last night, i was thinking about the house and such an important thing i failed to mention. i know a lot of people are out of work, have had their livelihoods stolen, or are just trying to scrape by. i am so thankful to have this new/old home. and i'm thankful that i have the option to move there.
incidentally, my dad paid me a visit last night in dreamland. my dreams of him have been few and far between. and the couple of times i've seen him, he's looked like a lifeless zombie or has had no face. but last night....the surroundings were what was dark, and his face is what i remember. he was stern. we were in the car driving. i was the passenger. i had that unmistakable feeling you have when you are with a parent, like they are watching your moves and thinking about how they can parent you. that feeling you have when you are having a discussion about some big decision, and your parent has an opinion. in the dream, we were driving to his house.
OK... i wanted to say this last night... you are absolutely doing the right thing....
ReplyDeleteforget the extra bathroom... your kinds are gonna have memories and community and something that a big 'ole house in the burbs could never afford you....
when it gets tough... think about all the cozy nights you'll spend with the kids... how they'll all be right there, living and loving together...
and think that it's just one less room you'll have to clean....
as someone whose house is only 1500 SF, I am all for the downsizing.... that is how families stay close.
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Ok, I just got chills from this post...
ReplyDeleteAnd just so you know, we live away from town a little on some property and there's nothing like watching your little kids shoot bows and arrows in their undies and rainboots or hunt for frogs and lizards just outside the house, or go on treasure hunts on our property where we can still see them. I know you know these things, but we're living it right now and our little family loves having our own space in the country. You guys will too. Love you St.Clairs...
-Claire
thank you so much. i needed those words. i know you both are right. i just needed a pep talk. i am so afraid to change. in all aspects of my life. i have had so much of it this year, i feel all full up. it's going to be fun. truly i'm excited for the adventure!
ReplyDeleteclair-e, brad is worried about rob out there shooting bows and arrows in his underwear.:)
i love your dream. i think it means your dad approves of you moving to the country. :)
ReplyDeleteAs for extra bathrooms...if you had 2 girls i might say spring for it. but you've got the boys. they go into the bathroom for 3 things: potty, bath, and make a mess. maybe 1 less bathroom to clean is a good thing. :-)
thanks for understanding my grocery store story. :)