we went to beans 18 month checkup today. he is so healthy and happy and smart. we are so blessed with this last, second, precious child. i was watching him last night during stories and was thinking about how much he's changed in the last 4 months. he likes to stand right now while i read to him. he can barely focus because he wants to run and pick out the next book. after my dad would sit with beans on mondays i would find a million books around our reading chair. one book in particular....the one i bought for beans on his first birthday. i always imagine my dad reading that book to him and i find my thoughts drifting to what beans was like the monday before he died. i try not to dwell on it, but it's hard moving on without him in our lives. i feel so sad that he isn't here to see beans blossom. 
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
mixed blessings
we went to beans 18 month checkup today. he is so healthy and happy and smart. we are so blessed with this last, second, precious child. i was watching him last night during stories and was thinking about how much he's changed in the last 4 months. he likes to stand right now while i read to him. he can barely focus because he wants to run and pick out the next book. after my dad would sit with beans on mondays i would find a million books around our reading chair. one book in particular....the one i bought for beans on his first birthday. i always imagine my dad reading that book to him and i find my thoughts drifting to what beans was like the monday before he died. i try not to dwell on it, but it's hard moving on without him in our lives. i feel so sad that he isn't here to see beans blossom. 
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that is gonna make me cry... I can't say I know how you feel, becaue I don't, but I can only imagine... I guess all you can do is relish the time you guys did have together....
ReplyDeletebeautiful heartfelt post. when beans is older you can show him posts like this and tell him storise about his grandpa.
ReplyDeleteMeg...I am sorry that you have to go through these emotions. Your boys are so precious! It is good that you have those recent memories of your dad with beans and sweet pea stored in your mind...
ReplyDeleteHe is watching beans blossom, just from afar, and even though you guys can't see him or feel him he is with you every day.
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