perfect world

today, as i've been feeling particularly grouchy and ungrateful, my negativity came to a screeching halt, as did my heavy, heavy heart. i first read about this sweet little angel here and then here as well. twice in one day i was touched by the same sad story. i feel like this is such an important lesson and a reminder to LET some of the little things get lost in the shuffle.

i would trade my life to prevent my children from suffering even a tiny bit. when you hear about another mother losing a child you want to throw yourself down and beg for forgiveness and pray that it never, ever happens to you.

this particular mom has such strong wisdom to impart on those of us who are so fortunate to have our whole family.

It's something you can't possibly realise fully until it's gone..that every person out there who has all of their children does in fact exist in their very own Xanadu. We didn't know that our happiness was so completely and utterly tied up in the simple fact that all of our children were here and healthy. That the ability to feel true, untainted joy would also be lost the day Ava left. I can't ever go back and live in that perfect World, I can't ever again experience happiness not tinged with sadness. I didn't know it when I had it and I can't have it now I know what it is. All I can do is keep sharing what I have learnt..to remind every person out there who does have all their children to just be so, so thankful, to let go of the small stuff and to trust me when I say you have absolutely everything you need. - sheye rosemeyer

her words have lingered in my mind and my heart all day. too often we wish for the things we don't have and want for the things we don't need. if only we could just be happy in the moment before the moment passes us by. if only we could live just like our children - forgetting yesterday and never worrying about tomorrow.