dream big

i face down today and know more than ever that i need to sit at this computer and write out my words in order to survive.  i must get back to the writing of my old days.  and in order to do this i have to clear out the cobwebs in my storied brain.  so i'm just going to keep going, ok?  

when i made the decision to go and i closed that door in my life, kindly.  all sorts of new opportunities began to present themselves.  for many years i've dreamed of going on an around the world trip with the kids.  i imagined the trip to take place at a prime age for my older son and a pretty good age for the younger.  i wanted a time when they would both remember the trip, but also before the angst of middle school set in.  

i just quit my J.O.B., yo.  and i had some thinking to do about the coming months.  and of course where i was way back then (in jan-april) i was still attempting to implement the perfect life and the perfect plan and land the perfect next job and all the while sitting in a giant mess of sadness and imperfection.  on a whim i emailed the principal at school and asked what it would look like if we traveled for a few months and didn't come to school.  i told her my dream.  

her response:  DREAM BIG. 

and then our lives really turned upside down.