the unbalancing

until very recently i believed that other people could live their dreams and that other people had choices i was not able to make.  i gave all my power away.  and it was sad to be powerless and choiceless.  it felt like being stuck.  what little energy i kept for myself i used up trying hard at all the things.  there is never enough trying hard.  it's exhausting and also sad.  it was time to make my own choices.  so i did.  

i want to tell you all about how i quit my job after twenty two years, and my husband got a job for the first time in ten years in another state, and that i became a stay at home mom (for however briefly) and how we made a plan to take our kids out of school so we could travel until january.  but i haven't found all the words, yet.  for now, just look at this costume i saw at l'opera garnier in paris, you guys. try making choices, too.  it feels great.  the world is waiting for you to show up.