six

it's amazing to think that six years ago this very day i was terrified to become a parent.  on the eve of his birth i was afraid.  not afraid of giving birth, but afraid of being responsible for that life.  i remember thinking sometime in those first crazy weeks...i can't even imagine how i will make it to his fifth birthday.  and every minute, day, year...it has just gotten more and more joyful.  now we are at six.  i'm ready to put the brakes on.  the time has already flown by.  he's a boy.  he has major thoughts and abilities.  but i will always be a new mom with him.  he will be my child of firsts.  and that sweet smile he gave me at four weeks old.  you know the one that tells you in your heart that you are truly his momma...no matter what?  that's the smile i saw this morning as he came running across the kitchen.  it will forever be the light at the end of my tunnel.  amen.