kindergarten

for the last few weeks i have been on a roller coaster of emotion.  thinking about days gone by with sweet pea and all of the pending firsts in his life.  some kind of resolution came over me last night as i said my prayers.  come what may...my boy is becoming who he will be.  without me.  some might say it is bittersweet.  but not me.  there is not one regret or hesitation.  i wouldn't have it any other way...than a boy who woke up this morning and hugged everyone in his family.  his brother twice.  because "this is the best day of my entire life.  yet."  there was not one ounce of bitter in our sweetness this morning.  i am so proud at how well adjusted he's become. 

i am overjoyed that my boy was able to navigate his way through the sea of parents and children to his teacher, confidently.  {and by the way his teacher...she is the most magical kind of kindergarten teacher i have ever seen}  that he is eager to show how independent he is by taking the bus. 

reassured that he has made friends already.  and so thankful to have my own friends to go through this with at the same time.  i read this blog post today and realized how true it is that our children are beginning to define themselves and show us their personalities in ways we could never script.  and i picture that little nine pound baby boy resting on my arm and remember thinking how i could not imagine what he would be like as a walking, talking five year old.  

i watched him sleeping last night, my first born baby was just minutes in the past.  i could see him right there in the body of a five year old...in the way he pursed his lips and snored his baby snores.  these are the days, right?  the very best days.  and i know the next five years of our lives will be governed by the words of a very special father from my childhood..."i don't know how good i did as a dad, but we sure had fun.  didn't we?"  amen.