small blessings

sometimes i literally have to stop and remind myself how thankful i am for these two amazing lives. they push me to the brink of insanity. and still, every night, i go in their rooms and i watch them sleep. i get tears in my eyes thinking of the ways i could be better for them. i wipe away all the stress and anxiety i have about parenting. i kiss their cheeks and whisper good thoughts in their ears. i drink in their goodness until i'm all full. then i say my thanks for the opportunity to do it all again tomorrow...